a DreAm iS a WiSh mAde wIF ur HeArT...

im sad.
and confused.
wth is wrong with me?
i should be happy.
i am,
at times.
but a part of me seems
missing...
everything seems alright.
but why does it feel so wrong?
seriously
to hell with these nonsense

i miss my grandma...
the wailing..the rituals...they still ring in my ears...
the day she's being cremated..
it's on 30 june too...

i miss jy.
and ql.
and hsien wen.
and fatiha.
and...