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a DreAm iS a WiSh mAde wIF ur HeArT...

Mmm...dunnoe if vanga will read tis entry....bt really wanna sae a big thank you to you....thanks alot...Mmm...din really expect he wld actually b 1 f the ones to tell mi abt tat sort of things...he really changed alot le...he told mi things tat nobody has actually really wanna sae abt it...guess its coz all of us were kinda involved in a way or another...its all too sensitive to say...all too painful for mi to think...its lyk a forgotten wound...a wound tat has nt healed..a wound tat is being hidden deep down,hoping tat by ignoring it,time will heal it by its own...Mmm...guess im juz deceiving myself...guess all tat had happened has made the wound very deep nw...tat even thinking of them makes mi wanna cry...sorry vanga and jy if i've frighthen you guys juz nw....
Mmm....guess im too scared of getting hurt again...im nw very protective of myself....lyk having a closed door tat nobody can enter....being reserved abt everything i do and say....seldom let my real feelings show...making very few people really understand mi....i thot by doin tat,i wont feel hurt again...but it seems tat nt onli im hurt,those ard mi are hurt too....nw im experiencin it again...and i really dunnoe wad to do nw...i guess i onli have myself to blame...why haven i learn frm my first lesson..?i juz hope all these is nt wad i imagine....i hope im juz being over-sensitve...tat you and her are juz best frens...
vanga said tat god is very fair...in life,you give in some things and you gain some....you lost one thing and you will have a new one very soon...bt i really dun wanna have a new one....why does even the slighest touch or juz a simple care of concern makes my heart thump so fast..?tat the memories of...juz keep coming to mi...?wad exactly is the relationship btw us nw..?i really dun wanna play the guessing game and be in confusion again....
Mmm....vanga,really thanks for cheering mi up....and you are my good fren...hahaz...=)

Mmm...maybe its time to sae pangapshimida and start moving on..?haha...