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i ThoT yoU weRe mY fAirYtaLe...

hmm...2dae's campus superstar isnt wad i wld sae a veri nice 1...prefer sec 2 1...atmosphere is thr i guess...hahaz....Mmm...bt dunnoe y...throughout the whole thing,i juz kept screaming n shouting...seriously i really dunnoe hu im shouting for...for leeyen mayb...?i really hav no idea...juz wanna let out all of my sadness..my frustrations..my feelings all out...to let out all those tat i dunnoe hw to express in words....yah,i guess i did feel better...bt its juz for a short while...the feeling came back to me again while i was walkin hm....the memories tat i had were veri happy...bt sometimes the memories of it are so wonderful tat when it suddenly seems lyk a luxury of experiencin it again,it hurt you so much tat you cry...mayb all of these happened too fast,neither of us was able to make any meaning out of it...it was juz a moment of impulse...lettin time lead us on...makin us fools out of it...or m i the only one..?perhaps the time isnt right...haha...all of it is lyk a fantasy...happiness in a bubble....eveything is lyk a fairytale...lastin for a short while....and 'pop'...the bubble is gone...n im nw back to reality....haha...y does it alwaes end off lyk tat..?i guess im juz losin my faith in....haha....bt i guess it no longer matters animore....coz i've learnt tat time will alwaes heal the wound...lyk it alwaes wld....haha...
Mmm...lao gong told mi stg 2dae...stg tat i've been wishin for for the past few mths last yr...stg tat i've been yearning to hear...bt it doesnt matter animore nw....you shi zai xiang,lao tian zhen ai zuo nong ren...haha....makin us complete fools of ourselves...becoming totally oblivious of our feelings...until it's become too late...till wads left of it are all regrets...haha...
Mmm...saw vanga in sch again 2dae....last time in 2e3,had nvr thot tat i wld b so happy to c him...bt nw i do....hahaz....SmiLe fOr Me EVeRyTimE yOu SeE mE...still rmb?lolx...=)
Mmm...mayb its time for me to embark on the journey alone nw...bt i guess it wont b as lonely as b4 coz i've gt my frenz n vanga nw...hahaz...

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a DreAm iS a WiSh mAde wIF ur HeArT...

Mmm...dunnoe if vanga will read tis entry....bt really wanna sae a big thank you to you....thanks alot...Mmm...din really expect he wld actually b 1 f the ones to tell mi abt tat sort of things...he really changed alot le...he told mi things tat nobody has actually really wanna sae abt it...guess its coz all of us were kinda involved in a way or another...its all too sensitive to say...all too painful for mi to think...its lyk a forgotten wound...a wound tat has nt healed..a wound tat is being hidden deep down,hoping tat by ignoring it,time will heal it by its own...Mmm...guess im juz deceiving myself...guess all tat had happened has made the wound very deep nw...tat even thinking of them makes mi wanna cry...sorry vanga and jy if i've frighthen you guys juz nw....
Mmm....guess im too scared of getting hurt again...im nw very protective of myself....lyk having a closed door tat nobody can enter....being reserved abt everything i do and say....seldom let my real feelings show...making very few people really understand mi....i thot by doin tat,i wont feel hurt again...but it seems tat nt onli im hurt,those ard mi are hurt too....nw im experiencin it again...and i really dunnoe wad to do nw...i guess i onli have myself to blame...why haven i learn frm my first lesson..?i juz hope all these is nt wad i imagine....i hope im juz being over-sensitve...tat you and her are juz best frens...
vanga said tat god is very fair...in life,you give in some things and you gain some....you lost one thing and you will have a new one very soon...bt i really dun wanna have a new one....why does even the slighest touch or juz a simple care of concern makes my heart thump so fast..?tat the memories of...juz keep coming to mi...?wad exactly is the relationship btw us nw..?i really dun wanna play the guessing game and be in confusion again....
Mmm....vanga,really thanks for cheering mi up....and you are my good fren...hahaz...=)

Mmm...maybe its time to sae pangapshimida and start moving on..?haha...

tErRifiEd nOw...

a DreAm iS a WiSh mAde wIF ur HeArT...

Mmm...on fri nite went out wif jy,mel n jq to c fireworks...hao hao kan wor....nw i finally noe why jy keep saein she wanna c the fireworks...hahaz....reali veri veri nice..!!!hahaz....mayb when ya dun c often of it den ya really will c the beauty of it...?
Mmm....tis is onli my 3rd time seeing the fireworks....pathetic huh..?hahaz...Mmm....bt cum to tink of it nw,wo ying gai suan shi ting xing fu le bahz...hahaz...Mmm....i rmb the 1st time i watched the fireworks is when i was pri 5...during the ndp...den 2nd time is beginning of tis yr...i tink...was wif my cousins...den suddenli..boom!!...its the fireworks....veri nice!!!hahaz....den the 3rd time...is wif my jy dey all....hahaz...really enjoyed myself tat nite....its sooo fun...thanks guys for making such a memorable nite for mi....thanks for ur enthusiasm...hahaz....ask u all on recess den ltr ya sae can go on tat nite...thanks a million times...thanks...=)
Mmm....on tat nite lauf alot....thanks to our dear mel n jy...lolx....hmm....wonder if mel mouth nw ok alr...lolx...=) n still gt jq's usage of words at carls' Jr...vibratin...hahaz....Mmm....aft eatin,went to the fountain of wealth....tats my 1st time actuali reali go n lk at it...coz everytime will juz walk past it...Mmm...guess its really time i noe hw to cherish and appreciate the things around me...instead of juz 'walkin past' it...ignorin it...haha...Mmm...tink i veri sua gu...bt the musical fountain reali veri nice....hahaz...aft tat,we wanted to go esplanade to watch fireworks....bt....we lost our way...in s'pore...can ya believe it..?wo men zhen de shi lu chi ye...lolx....bt luckily can catch the fireworks at marina sq....hahaz....
Mmm....den we lie down on the pavement waitin for the fireworks....hahaz...den took weird pics in the dark....esp love the one whrby we r reachin out...for the stars..?hahaz....Mmm...if onli the 7 duo hua were aso thr too.....
Mmm...suddenly.....BOOM!!!!the fireworks!!!its omg....its very very nice!!!!!n wif the company of 'em...the fireworks are simply awesome...hahaz....Mmm....as the fireworks appear before my eyes many many images n thots flashed in my head....haha...dun reali noe wad im tinkin at tat time aso...haha....kinda wish i hav the remote control in the movie click....den i wld b able to remain in the happy moments n fast forward the unhappy ones...wont life b much more happier tis way..?den i wldnt hav to go thru all of the sadness....haha...everydae of my life wld den b as colorful as those of fireworks...i wldnt hav to experience the darkness in mi again....haha....
Mmm....sometimes i really tink life is too short to make any sense out of it....every stage in life is lyk flyin pass nw...ppl cum n go in ur life...dey wont stay wif ya 4eva...dey will juz stay in ur heart...tgt wif the memories dey've given ya....which juz makes ya feel either more happy or sad...haha....so why try so hard to decipher wads the meaning of life..?juz make sure ya live life to the fullest...livin the dae as if its gonna b ur last....makin sure its gonna be as interestin as the fireworks n as colorful as the rainbow...haha....so even when ur life ends as abruptly as the ending of the fireworks,u've at least live life to the fullest...leavin a beautiful trace on the earth...haha...
Mmm....while watchin the fireworks,i made a wish again....i hope it comes true...though it wld take a long time bt im willin to wait....n i noe when the wish really do cum true...i wld den b able to.....

tHe PrOoF tAt i EveR eXiSteD iS yOu...

e DaE b4 nAtiOnaL dAe

foLloW yOuR fAith...

wa...jing tian hao gao xing wor....ke yi gen 7 duo hua chu qu...hahaz...Mmm...bt sabx cnt go...coz gt piano exam...so...jq dai ti le ta...lolx...den ltr took neoprint wif 'em...soo long nvr take wif 'em le....gonna keep properly the neoprints tat i take wif 'em...dey r 1 of my treasures...hahaz...
hmmm....nw i gt biao ge in sch le wor...i veri xing fu to hav xing cun as my BIAO GE...lolx...he so funny n cute larhz...hahaz...
wa...2dae is the national dae celebration in sch....den can wear the national colorz....n...wen hui wear until sooo nice...!!!!hahaz....the way he wear 2dae lyk a mix of korea n hk styles...hahaz...gonna rmb wad he wear on tat dae man...lolx....
hmm....den 2dae went to phoeb's hse....wo men yi qi qu wan playground wor...hahaz...Mmm...den i sat on the swing...wheneva someone comes behind my swing...i will b veri scared...hahaz...stupid rite?coz tink last time my father help mi to swing the swing...den he swing so high,tat i almost hit a tree....felt as if im gonna fall out of it anitime....hao mei you an quan gan wor...hahaz....i tink im veri weird..phoeb tinks so too...i dare to sit on roller coasters bt nt swings...lolx...wa...hao jiu mei you qu playground wan le....tink gt years le ba...hahaz...tink i've alr forgotten how it feels lyk to go to the playground wif my parents le....last time when young tat time,my mama will always acc mi to go to the playground n sometimes play wif mi....wo hen xing fu dui ma..?hahaz...yi qian mama de shou hui qian zhe wo de shou yi qi zou lu...mama de shou yi qian wo zhe wo de xiao shou,na shi zhen de jue de mama de shou hao da....n i nvr felt so...secure...xian zai wo hai shi jue de na shi hou wo jue de zui you an quan gan...haha...Mmm...i dun reali rmb holding hands wif my father to walk...tink the times we did is less then 5 times..?haha...
hmm.....2dae standin on top at the playground makes mi tink of last yr we went to phoeb hse to make apple pie for the buzz stop..hahaz...still rmd gt 1 time we went to the playground,den i sit the see-saw wif phoeb...its lyk omg...phoeb make the thing up n down so hard,i almost flew out of tat thing...you cld c my ass jump up frm the seat larhz...lolx...aiyoz..tat gurl sit see-saw veri scary 1...even sabx is afraid...hahaz.....
wa...if onli i can go thr at nite during dec...yi ding hui hen piao liang de...den can c the moon and stars....n aso wil b veri windy..hahaz....n aso can make alot of wishes under the stars...hahaz...Mmm...dunnoe y...bt i alwaes make wishes whenever i c the stars or the moon....veri stupid rite?hahaz....
hmm...few daes ago,i sent jy hm...Mmm....tink its my 1st time reali sendin someone dao ta jia lou xia...hahaz....last time onli wait for phoeb or sabx bus cum den i go le..hahaz...if its in sec 2,i wld nvr hav imagine i wld hav send jy hm...we wld b soo embarrassed...hahaz...Mmm...during the walk,we reali talk alot..hahaz...Mmm...really glad tat we r in the same class...hahaz....
Mmm...i really miss my kor in HK....hw i wish i can c him again...im gonna go n find him if i go HK again....hahaz....he is veri veri gd...he is 1 of the nicest person/guy i've ever seen....hahaz...hope i can go HK tis dec hols den can c him n his frenz again...lolx...

Mmm....saranghaeyo...?