Somebody that I used to know.

Lies and distrust.even in dreams.
That's pathetic.
Was told that from your body language that you're not really into me.
And I'm starting to believe it.

DROWNING.

I miss my grandmother.

Of the past.

When I looked at her today

It feels like I'm looking at a different person.

She's so thin now.

I can feel her bones.

When I massaged her hands and legs

I'm reminded of the good old times.

Times she went to our house and play with me.

Times she waited for us at the market and we'd walk up to her house together.

Times she'd cook for me.

Times she shielded me from all the canings from mum.

Those were all distant memories.

Now i just wanna hold her hand and walk up the stairs with her again.

But she's too frail now to even walk.

I miss her.

Can I have her back aft the operation?

Relationships fall and whither because eventually someone stops trying and it doesn't feel the same. The first couple of months or even years it may be the best thing you ever wished for, but eventually someone loses feelings, gets to busy, or doesn't even bother to try. You know why? Because they're comfortable. The beginning is all about the chase. Can you keep up? If you can then you'll get the hang of it and then you won’t want to try anymore. You aren't afraid to lose them because they're yours. Arguing leads to fighting and it just gets worse from there. It all flashes by so fast. So, cherish what you have.

NOBODY'S HOME.

Feeling so useless.helpless now.

Wish someone's here.

Anyone.

To guide me thru.

To tell me what to do.