TEENAGE DREAM.

it has been bugging me.
i think i know the answer to it already.
but i need a closure.
a proper ending.
and not just leave me hanging there
to guess whats fcuking going on.
i dont need another guy to play mind games with me
or to use my common sense or whatever to judge the situation.
i dont like it.
i know the signs of the beginning of the end.
two is enough for me to grasp it.
but i guess probably not enough to have learn the lesson.
am i being too oversensitive with whats going on
or are the insecurities eating me up
idk.
but its obvious to other people too.
at least tell me whats going on now
so that i can prepare myself for the worst.

HIGH AND DRY.

wanna get out of this house.
seriously.
my eldest sis did it.
she just left whenever she's upset or when there's trouble at home.
and it's the same with my second sis now too.
both just took off.
and i'm left with whatever shit is happening in the house.
i should probably do the same thing too next time.
just wanna start on work soon.
so i can get out of this shit.
all these fcuking shit.
i wanna go to the rooftop and just rot there.

TELL ME GOODBYE.

i think this too would end up the same way as the previous ones.
ended before it has really started.
i dont think that's what i want.
christmas doesnt seem much of a big deal now.
distant.
maybe i should do something.
but wth should i do
or what do you want me to do