TEENAGE DREAM.

it has been bugging me.
i think i know the answer to it already.
but i need a closure.
a proper ending.
and not just leave me hanging there
to guess whats fcuking going on.
i dont need another guy to play mind games with me
or to use my common sense or whatever to judge the situation.
i dont like it.
i know the signs of the beginning of the end.
two is enough for me to grasp it.
but i guess probably not enough to have learn the lesson.
am i being too oversensitive with whats going on
or are the insecurities eating me up
idk.
but its obvious to other people too.
at least tell me whats going on now
so that i can prepare myself for the worst.

HIGH AND DRY.

wanna get out of this house.
seriously.
my eldest sis did it.
she just left whenever she's upset or when there's trouble at home.
and it's the same with my second sis now too.
both just took off.
and i'm left with whatever shit is happening in the house.
i should probably do the same thing too next time.
just wanna start on work soon.
so i can get out of this shit.
all these fcuking shit.
i wanna go to the rooftop and just rot there.

TELL ME GOODBYE.

i think this too would end up the same way as the previous ones.
ended before it has really started.
i dont think that's what i want.
christmas doesnt seem much of a big deal now.
distant.
maybe i should do something.
but wth should i do
or what do you want me to do

EMPIRE STATE OF MIND.

he reminds me of someone.
the resemblance is there.
but it's not the looks.
not really.

HEARTBEAT.

i cant believe how scared i was to see the both of them.
i practically ran.
to avoid them.
i wish i have managed a hi at the very least.

UNFAITHFUL.

he's married.
but the woman beside him is not who it's supposed to be.
and they're not just friends.
should i be grateful?
because at least it's not my father caught in the act.
now i think i know how it feels.
if one day i do see him with another woman.
and not eric telling me.
guys are just suckers.
suckers for looks and figure.
hell but the woman has none.
SUCKER.

BO PEEP BO PEEP.


this is a damn old photo.
didnt expect him to still have it.
that was our first time going out together?
wonder why we have been out together only twice.
I MISS HIS BIG EYES.
HE HAS GOT THE BIGGEST EYES THAT I'VE EVER SEEN.
but not in this photo.
haha.
reminds me of yoogeun!

HARU HARU.

BEING RICH IS NOT NECESSARILY A GOOD THING.
PEOPLE BEFRIEND YOU FOR THE MONEY.
EVEN YOUR FAMILY MEMBER WANNA CHEATS YOU OF THE MONEY.
NICE.WHAT CAN I SAY.
YOU DONT CARE.
THE FAMILY'S WEIRD.

YEAR OF US.

SHINEE IS IN SINGAPORE NOW.
MINHO AND JONGHYUN.
wanted to go for the autograph session.
i did went actually.
BUT ON THE WRONG DATE.
I WENT A DAY EARLIER.
REACHED THERE AROUND 7 PLUS IN THE MORNING.
HAHA.


I LOVE BF THE MOST MOST.
HAHA.

BEAUTIFUL LIAR.

JUICY COUTURE.BURBERRY.
JUICY IS SO SWEET.
AND DEFINITELY MORE AFFORDABLE.
AND BURBERRY IS WHAT I'VE BEEN SAVING FOR.
BUT AT THE RATE I AM SAVING
IT MIGHT JUST TAKE YEARS TO GET ONE.
MAYBE SHOULD SETTLE FOR SOMETHING LESS
JUICY COUTURE.

'Dog & Bone should never be played against big guys who treats you like one.'- fatiha

i know tharma is dark.
but i never knew he is that.
dark.
haha.
and that was my first time kissing an indian.
no.it was just a peck on the cheeks.
i think i can better remember vejay even after graduation then.
haha.

SIGN.

WHO SAID ABOUT EATING CHOCOLATES WOULD MAKE YA FEEL BETTER
LIAR.

UNTIL YOU.

MY MUM WAS BEING TOTALLY RANDOM.
"YOU'RE QUITE PRETTY.
BUT YOUR BOOBS ARE SMALL."
HAHA.
NOW AM I SUPPOSED TO FEEL HAPPY OR SAD?

I DIDNT KNOW RICKY CAN BE SO GAY.
HAHA.

BAD ROMANCE.

seeing him again was weird.
i couldnt even manage a hi and bye.
i always wanna talk to him
to be able to at least manage a proper conversation with him
but it just fails every single time.
HAHA.
and i realised just how tall he is now
180cm maybe?
HAHA IDK IDC.
and i just love bird.
SHE IS SO PRETTY.GORGEOUS.
HAHA.

MEET ME ON THE EQUINOX.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!
IT'S 2010!
yesterday's fireworks was.
good.
except for the trees that blocked our full view of it

had been walking so much recently.
i feel so.
accomplished.
should walk more next time since i obviously cant run.
HAHA.

gonna go zouk with dears tmr
FINALLY.
GET HIGH AND DRUNK TMR.
OK NOT DRUNK.
BUT HIGH AND FUN.
HAHA.

i feel like such a bitch now.