eveything's changing...

hmm....wa..2dae lots of surprises wor...ulfred sms mi early in the morning(at least to mi it is..hehe)to tuk...i went lyk woah....Mmm..tuk to him for hrs...he sooo cute.....esp when he ask mi abt stg...hehe...omg....wanna hug him man...hahaz....juz kiddin... =) hmm...hope i can get the bdae pressie i requested frm him....hehe...go go jia you...!!!Mmm...hope sum1 will overcum her fear n welcum him wif open arms....mayb tis wld b better den e previous 1..? seeing the wae ya react tells mi it wld b....go 4 it ppl....!
hmm...start of june hols le...but sumhw i dun feel the vibes at all....perhaps coz i start e hols on a bad note....haiz..my mum were being asked to go to the parent meeting session...coz my results simply sux....tink i shldnt even go to 3e2 in the 1st place....Mmm....but hey...at least im gettin on better wif my classmates....hahaz...yay!!!!!!
Mmm....on be urself dae so weird larhz....kenneth n i wore tops of the same color....both of us wore tops tat hav the (almost) same shade of green wif yellow trimmings on the shirt....nan dao wo men xin you ling xin yi dian tong..?hahaz....
hmm......stg btw mi n phoeb happen again....except tis time it involves sabx n lots more ppl....nwadaes i cld no longer tuk to her....wheneva i tuk to her it wld turn to an argument instead...perhaps im being jealous...or petty...i cldnt help but feel down when i see her wif sabx n the 3e1 classmates... im nt in the same class as ya....seldom go out wif ya even aft skool...so y do ya...?m i imaginin all these..?i've seen so many times whrby ya left jtms n steph to b wif others....n left 'em alone....ya wld rather spend our only time 2gather to b wif others....sumtimes ya even ignore wad we hav sae,pretendin ya din hear when its said so loud tat even the deaf can hear....at times ya even diao at (sum of) us....do ya noe tat all of us felt hurt...?esp mi...y do all these hav to happen to us again..?i feel tat ya r driftin apart frm us....nw i even feel tat im closer to steph den ya....y did ya change so much..?or m i the 1 hu is changing..?didn't you say that we will go through thick and thin together even if there are tears in our eyes...?din u gave me ur promise tat no matter wad happens we would always be the best of friends..?
phoebe, i really miss the 2e3 times we shared 2gather....even the bad times of it seemed better than what we are experiencing now.....
on dec 05,u've told mi tat we wld 4eva be the best of friends...now i need you to assure me again that we are and would always be.....

eXamZzz feVeR in e aiR...

haiz...exams start le...haven even start studying for the upcuming subjects...nvm...might juz as well fail my exams...wa...yesterdae nite rush lyk mad...didnt revise 4 my geo 4 the past few daes...so yest nd to cramp all hundreds of pgs of info into my head...den study till 3am....n slp 4 2 1/2hr n wake up at 5.30am....haiz..tired man..aft e exam,cum back hm and slp for 4 hrs straight...1st time eva..?yea,tink so....hav tried staying up till 6 in e morn doing stg else,but definitely nt for studying....hehe..
wa...to mi the dae when examz end seem so far away frm nw...6 moredaes..8 more examz to go....haiz...
hmmm...2dae took bus to my cousin's hse...e journey's scary...thrs 1 old couple in e bus...den dey keep scolding each other vulgarities n e guy pushed the lady...ta men chao dao hao xiong,hao pa ren....it brought shivers down my spine...sumhow,looking at the old couple reminds mi of my parents...dey used to quarrel alot...sumtimes my father wld even push my mum to the ground....n my mum wld suffer frm bruises....my mum used to tink of committing suicide..tinkin life doesnt mean a thing animore....once, when i was ard eleven,my mum decided to leave the family....luckily,my godma found her in the end....i rmb crying till i slp in those daes...mayb tats y i dun hav a gd relationhip wif my father...i seldom tuk to him...i dun lyk him...i hate him....sumtimes i feel lyk i live wif a stranger....we r juz father n daughter in name...
hmmm peeps...hang in thr man...!!!we r gonna see the sunlight aft tis mid yr examz...study hard wor...we r alr halfway thr le,dun give up....study hard!!Go go jia you...!!! :D